Sunday

I once read a quote from my favorite blogger (Lucedale) about Sunday. She wrote this quote ‘You are sad, Sunday. A beautiful kind of sad.’ And since then, those words really tug at my heart strings. To be frank, I still don’t know the meaning behind her words, based on her mind. But here, let […]

Love Letter to Future Spouse

Hi, Future Spouse. I don’t know who you are, yet. But I already know what I want to tell you when we meet. If one day, I turn out to be someone that doesn’t meet your expectation, please do not leave me. Instead, lead me the way, to be a better version of me. Lead […]

Note to Self

Dear Myself, It is okay to not to be okay. Sometimes, things happened. You messed things up. You made bad decision. Said the wrong things you didn’t mean to. Hurt people you loved even you have no intention to. And so on. It is okay. Not that I say that it was right because it wasn’t. […]

Tetap

Aku memang mudah berubah. Suatu waktu aku penuh suka. Untuk kemudian aku marah. Lalu setelahnya aku dirundung duka. Aku memang mudah berubah. Suatu waktu aku lepas tertawa. Untuk kemudian aku kecewa. Lalu setelahnya aku menangis sejadinya. Seperti orang tidak waras, dengan emosi yang meluap-luap, grafik emosiku turun naik tidak beraturan, katanya. Aku tidak mengelak Apalagi […]

Insecurity

She provided a place for wounded heart, but having none for hers. She wanted to embrace people’s pain, but never truly embrace hers. She understand a reason why people feel bad, but blaming herself the most when she feel bad. She always tried to see the best in everyone, but she never see the good […]

Daniell Koepke’s words

I don’t feel really good at all in this past few days. Well, actually I haven’t been in a good state since February. Some days just hard but bearable, then the other days just get harder and unbearable. And in this past few days, has been especially unbearable for me. I am in the state […]

Sedikit Tentang Hari Ini

Sebenarnya sedikit bingung mau menulis ini. Karena sedikit berbeda dari tulisan biasanya. Tapi, sedari awal saya membuat blog ini, memang untuk menulis isi hati dan pikiran tanpa ada pakem format tertentu. Sekedar untuk merekam isi pikiran dan hati. Untuk lebih memahami rasa dan diri. Sehingga nanti, apabila saya mulai lupa diri, membaca tulisan-tulisan saya ini […]

Path

They said it is the time for me to stop being sad over you. They said it was for the best, that you were right, we are too different and not meant to be. They said i am going to be okay. Eventually. — You said I will never change. It makes you unhappy You […]

Surrender

I am letting myself get used to something unfamiliar. Waking up in the morning with a hole in my heart that no one can fill. Being anxious or having a sudden meltdown when something popped out in my mind. I am surrender to whatever God let my heart feels.

It is irony. That your beginning was my ending.

Meaning of you.

What should I do If – even the sweetest word I have in mind cannot describe for a bit the meaning of you in my life.

About falling.

Falling in love is such a big deal. To be fall in love; to be fully willing to let your heart breaks. For someone that her heart has been shattered to pieces because of love, I once vow: to not let anyone have control over my heart again. Because after all, it is the power […]

Breathe, Because It Will Be Okay

2017 has been a rough and tough year; I was struggling with a lot of things, most of the times. It was hard; overwhelming. Everything wasn’t going really well; Nothing goes as I planned. I still don’t know where my life is heading. I failed to accomplish my goals too many times. I bid someone […]

The purpose of the pain in life.

“People only see what they wanted to see, hear what they wanted to hear, but unfortunately, they can’t only feel what they wanted to feel….” That is what I thought in my mind. I wonder why in life, people can choose what they wanted to see and hear what they wanted to hear. Like, sometimes […]

Stay.

Stay. The word that can be said so easily, yet one of hardest thing to do. We often expect people to stay. We often expect things to stay the same. Yet, if someone ask us to stay, stand by them through ups and downs; if our faith ask us to stay, to our conviction; if […]